Well I finally did it. I submitted an application to Boise State to earn a 2nd bachelor's -- this time in English, with a writing emphasis. I'm terribly excited about it. And a little bit scared. But school is where I was last truly happy, and I at least USED to be good at it, so I'm going to give it a shot. And hey, maybe with a mind focused on writing I might write more on here! We shall see....
The older I get, the more I likes me some indie/bluegrass music. One band I love that my brother introduced me to is Hem. They are a delight.
Then using the modern wonder that is Pandora, I plugged in Hem and found another delight called Nickel Creek. They used to be produced by the Queen Mother of modern bluegrass, Alison Krauss but I guess they've moved on.
i still will never admit to liking anything like country. NEVER!
Happy celebration of the greatest event in the history of mankind -- the rising of our Lord under His own power from the bonds of death to life again! What a stupendous thing! Death and pain are the scariest things we have to face, and this marvelous event overcomes them. What a blessing.
Now, as to General Conference today...I think I should have taken notes. I really liked Elder Nelson's talk about family history, and I was generally impressed to be a better parent by the other talks, but nothing jumped up and slapped me. I still love general conference though. It's wonderful to hear the messages from our living prophets and feel the Spirit and the love available for us.
I've learned a few things over the years. I used to keep a journal and write them down, but the last few years I haven't been so good about that. Still, I learn things, and I'd like to think that they are good and useful things, so I'm going to try and start writing them down here to hopefully help others.
So, everybody has this line in their perception. Everything above that line is a blessing. Everything below that line is a curse. Everything right at the line is the status quo, or 'as it should be.' Some people have a fairly high line. These people aren't usually very happy, because so much everyday stuff is under the line, and the stuff above the line is rare. Some people have a low line...they are, obviously, happier. Everyday stuff is a blessing.
The thing is, Heavenly Father has asked us to be grateful in ALL things, to acknowledge His hand in EVERYTHING. How many of us do that with this line we have in our head? How many of us can say when we get sick, 'I'm grateful that I'm sick?' What if it's cancer? What if it's your child with cancer? Can you honestly say that you're grateful? What do you think would happen if you DID?
Do you think it would make you happier? Put things into perspective? Remind you of the love of God, which goes beyond this life and everything in it? I've seen a bit of sorrow. One thing I've realized, though, is that I can get through it, as long as I put things into their proper perspective. God loves me. He is there to help me. He WANTS to help me. His ULTIMATE GOAL is to help me get back home to Him and He will do everything to get me there. So if something happens, it's for my good, whether it's fun or not, whether it's a consequence or not, no matter what. It's not only OK, it's the BEST thing for me. So who am I to complain? The Son of Man hath descended below them all, art thou greater than He? I need to throw away the line. Heavenly Father loves me. And that's all I need to know.
Today was General Conference day. For those of you who are not LDS, that is one of the weekends that comes twice a year when our worldwide leadership speaks to us, including the living prophet of our living God. It's a wonderful thing and I love to watch and listen to it.
Today's sessions seemed to focus a lot on parenthood and raising righteous children, and it really hit home for me. We've really been struggling with raising our nephew, because his upbringing was spotty at best, and dealing with him through my depression is really a challenge. I feel really guilty for not being able to deal with him better and help him more. But I got something else from the conference -- hope. Heavenly Father will help me overcome my depression and do my best with my nephew and do the things I need to do as long as I try my best. And that's far better than any pseudo-hope that any presidential candidate can promise.
Ooo new toys! I just added Amazon stuff to my blog so now I can make money if you guys buy stuff from the links I recommend. Is that not nifty? I love Amazon. I'm a shameless Amazon plugger. I don't like the way Wal-Mart does business, and I like good prices and selection, so Amazon is DA BOMB for shopping in my house. Not to mention that nobody in my family would get any birthday presents on time (or at all) if it weren't for Amazon. Good old Amazon. I--I love you.
Now, for a review. As many of you regular readers know, I suffer from depression. This sucks the fun out of things for me. One of the things that makes me saddest is how it has sucked the fun out of reading. HOWEVER, I find some hope in simple books, or really really good books. Now if a book is simple AND really, really good, that's a win-win. That's what I've found with . It's by Brandon Sanderson, which is already good because I already like his stuff, I've even met the guy, and he's LDS, all of which are pluses. Then on top, he writes this great book with one of the most unique styles of writing I have seen in quite a while. I love it. It's fun, it's clean, and it's good. hooray!
And don't forget the sequel (which I'm still working on), . So far, it's also very good.
I thought I had to change my blog all around. Really I did. But I called my cool cousin Jeremy, who works for Google, and he showed me that somehow I ALREADY changed my site around so I don't have to do it again. :) YAY FOR JERMY!
and yes, it does make me feel old that I used to babysit him.