The Big Four-Oh

I turn 40 next month.  I can't decide if I should throw a big party, or if I should just let it pass quietly and hope it goes away.  If I threw a big bash, would you come?

Back to school

I tried to post something about this earlier this week and it errored out.  So let's try this again.

I started school for my 2nd bachelor's at BSU this week.   It's quite terrifying.  I only have two classes, nonfiction writing and technical communication, and I'm very nervous.  I've felt DEAD for so long that I rather feel like a zombie, plugging into some huge electrical contraption trying to reanimate myself.  I don't remember how to act or think or do.  It makes me a little angry actually -- I've had too many jobs that actually punished me for independent, critical thinking until I became deathly afraid to be that way anymore.  Now I need to use that part of my brain again and it's very difficult to reanimate.  I'm so glad I have a good husband who worked hard to get his degree and support dysfunctional me while I relearn how to write so that maybe I can make some money later, doing what I want to do. 

America's Got Talent - Jackie Evancho

All I can say is, holy crap! She's GOOD!

One picture

Here is a picture of my brother Justin from around the time of my sister Byitny's (Brittany for you normalos) wedding. I told him he looked like Mexican Mafia. He was so happy.

oh I almost forgot

I got the results back from my MRI. They said my brain is normal. how disappointing. I was hoping for 'stupendous' or 'stunning' or some such thing.

Anxiety

I had to go in for a brain MRI this morning, because the trembling is getting so bad in my legs, etc. It's probably not anything like that, but we did the MRI just in case. The sad thing is it's actually probably caused by one of my medications, which saddens me. It's an atypical anti-psychotic called Abilify that is crazy expensive and really helps me with anxiety and depressive thoughts. I've said this before, but it's really weird how a pill can change the way you think. At any rate, the doctor is recommending that I decrease or eliminate my dosage of Abilify to stop the tremors, but to be honest, I'm afraid to. My depression is barely under control as it is, I'm afraid to take away any of my medications. But who knows? Maybe the negative side effects are more than I thought and it will really help to lessen my dose. I'll have to talk to my psychiatrist and see. In the meantime, I'm rather interested in seeing the scan of my brain. coooooooooool!

Along the same lines, school starts in a month and I'm scared. I only have 1 class that I've gotten into so far, but I'm even afraid of that because I'm just so lazy lately! We shall see......

Sharing Parenting

How territorial are you about your parenting? As someone who can't have kids, I find myself in no opportunities to see how I would be, but plenty of opportunities to have parenting 'shared' with me. I find that it's a subject of much offense on one side or the other, but people are so different in how they do it that it's impossible to tell until you've offended. For instance, on one end of the spectrum, you have the people who actually rely somewhat on others and they get peeved if other people don't stop their kids from misbehaving when the opportunity arises. On the other end, you have the people who yell at you for simply repeating what the parent said. I don't know which I would agree with more. I mean, I don't like the idea of people disciplining my kids willy-nilly, especially for things I don't agree with. On the other hand, kids are HARD to raise and I'm not super territorial, so I think I would appreciate a little reinforcement of my discipline every now and then. At any rate, I don't know what's best. What's your style?